So many job interviews/填form these days... been to so many places around HK~
as far as Choi Hung or CWB and as close as primeview (景峰).
so hard to find some job that is dental or medical related.
maybe i should start finding some job with high sarlary but non-related with medical..
Checked my A-Level Chemistry results, a double check as I was doing the Non-Jupas application to HKU..
Chemistry score raise from 499/600 to 510/600, grade didn't changed. shame.
crap... 2 weeks till the account expired.. and on Monday 2 weeks past. need to make a new account.
really don't know what to apply as my 3rd choice in HKU!
Dentistry... this year's application.. so hea.... last year in CCB so keen on doing the application, and so keen on doing the personal statement
this year.. haven't really start to draft my presonal statement. Need to add a few bits in my personal statement.... (especially about my plans for gap year,which is not planned yet.)
Need to get it started soon, once I have settle on my job.
Going to start working next Monday for the Chinese medicine... 1200-2100 have to eat 2 dinners over there.
try to find other job as I am working over there. and waiting for replies as well.
Sept. 15th
Played soccer for church at night.
draw 2-2 with some other church..
so sad... captain for the first time for church.. because lok hin is injured...
played okay..
Sept. 17th
watched the Piranha 3D and Killers last last Friday~
again 2 movies in the same day and this time 20 min. interval.
Piranha 3D
Very good movie!!! 3D so good.. and so cheap... $45..
So exciting.. and a good end... makes u want to watch the next one..
didn't really knew it was the end... till then.. shock...
Killers
VERY FUNNY movie!!! both of them.. so funny!!! and a strange ending..
$35... so good!!
Sept. 19th
Played soccer with CCB, and watch Man United v Liverpool..
played okay with them in shai tin. yuen wo road. those uncle are so funny, and crazy!
such a good match! 3-2, berbatov on fire!! hat-trick~ 2nd goal...such a wonder goal..
Liverpool..so close..next time..
Sept. 22nd
Went to a job interview that day in CWB. Chinese medicine. and the job is so hea.. and so boring..might do that if I can't find any other job.
my 19th birthday~ and happy mid-autumn festival.
9 years since I haven't been in HK for my birthday and mid-autumn fest., so good aR!!
Went to Tiger's house to celebrate.. (thx tiger for his place..so nice!!)
and so surprise that a cake was prepare..and so nice~THANK YOU!
really enjoy that night and it was a over-night stay.. then we went to morning service at 0630.
Sept. 23rd
Went to Early morning serivce at 0630, so tired.. everybody was so tired.!!
breakfast at sun fai kee, and then chill in church for a while and went to 2 job interviews, might get one of them, but the other one, they kind of rejected me.
Went back home at around 2ish, and then slept till 10pm. such a nice sleep.
Sept. 25th (today)
Went to a job interview some kind of marketing executive for a new technology in a medical beauty center (the one where aR gill promote for), know nothing about marketing and business, and its kind of hard for a fresh grad. to do something like that. need to do research on that new technology and present it and produce proposal to other department.
Afterwards went to PolyU Info day. it was useless, I was hoping to ask something about Physiotherapy, Occ. Therapy and nursing. about their non-jupas admission, and no one really answered me anything, all I found out today was that with GCE A-Level results are quite hard to get in to PolyU, since they realy like to take in people with a degree or students that are in yr.2 or yr.3 or appliciants that have work experience in related subject. They also suggest go to 'GH' (where it is a big room where professors are there to answer ques., but the queue are like so long that I will have to wait something like 5 hours.. so really can't be ask, and need to turn up to church.
Rehearsal the hymn that are going to be sing in chunkit and yeeman's wedding.
Then went to Jordan to have dinner with them, dinner at a japanese buffet place (2000円料理放題專門店), so full, food quality is fresh but too many fried food.. next time.. just sushimitei!!!!
it was also iceice (冰冰)'s birthday today! so we celebrated today, and a sushi cake was there for her.. so many rice.. haha..
so funny at the dinner.. everybody is going crazy likes of 卓峰...haha..
we wasted so many food... so sorry... shouldn't order them next time...
the dinner was free for the birthday people in sept. thx the group leaders!!! thank you so much!
Sept. 26th (tomorrow)
I shalt sleep till well late. coz its now 0554, and im still awake.
I shalt go to watch the church play basketball at 1530, a for a while I need to go to Cheung sha wan (長沙灣) to play soccer at 1700-1900
Also want to post a article from church which I find it quite interesting, and it is base on the movie Inception
沒錯。你沒有看錯，我也沒有寫錯，這次感言的題目是「前行空間」，不是已落了畫的電影「潛行凶間」。但在我看來，兩者大有關聯。別給這齣戲的名字騙 了，這不是恐怖驚慄片。如果你還未看過「潛行凶間」，那我鼓勵你找影碟來看看吧。它雖不是驚慄片，但對我卻是「警醒片」！我寧冒著給還未看，卻想看這電影 的人的白眼，也要在此說一說這「戲橋」。事先聲明，我沒受過心理學的訓練，如有理解和表達錯誤，還望指正。
簡單來說，男主角李安納度和他的 同伴，用精奇的方法進入要下手的對象的潛意識中，要把一個外來的意念「植入」（implant）這對象的潛意識裡，從而影響對方的感受、決定以致人生。李 安納度說：「意念非常有威力，只要你讓它留在裡面發展，它會傳染開去。」原文大意是“An idea is very powerful. Once you let it stay there and grow, it can become very contagious.”單是這句已叫我瞪大雙眼，豎起耳朵看這齣戲了。因為那陣子，我正思考一個人的思想和如何活著的關聯。
好戲還在後 頭！男主角解釋說，這意念可以基於真實或真相（reality），也可以基於假象/虛假（falsehood）。嘩！他這句話對我猶如醍醐灌頂。如果一個 人所持的意念是基於真相，固然他能在真實裡活著做人。但如果他所持的意念不是基於真相，就會給假意念（false ideas）欺瞞，以假作真的活著。我遇過這樣的人，我自己處過這樣的境況嗎？你遇過這樣的人，你自己處過這樣的境況嗎？
片中男主角和同伴 冒險潛進對象一層又一層的潛意識裡，目的是把一個外來的虛假意念「植入」對方比較深的潛意識層裡。為什麼？因為一個意念越是在更深的潛意識層，當事人越難 自我覺察（self-aware）這意念的存在和這意念如何影響他的活著。換句話說，當事人會更不自覺地根據這意念活他的日子。那麼，如果我想更能清醒做 人，辨識真假，盡力按真相來生活，就要提高自我覺察的能力。
只是說時容易，行出來卻一點也不易。因為在我們裡面，有一種反應迅速，不分好歹 能力，就是「防衛機制」（defense mechanism），叫我們不易察覺，和從假象或虛假的意念中醒過來。當男主角和同伴越要深入對象的潛意識層，想改變對象的原有意念時，就遇上對方腦海 中出現的軍隊，激烈地開火反抗──這畫面正象徵著對方的防衛機制，他對改變的拒絕（resistance to changes）。論到防衛機制的「軍火庫」，應有盡有：否認、抽離、投射、合理化、諉過於人、討好別人…….你說吧！（You name it！）。自我覺察力還來不及反應，早死在防衛機制不分青紅皂白的火力下。人又繼續活在假象中。聽起來，是不是很灰呢？
可幸的是，男主角給 了兩條出路。一是有人給這位活在虛假的仁兄「踢一腳」（“give him a kick”，這是男主角說的），力度要足夠使當事人跌醒才可。二是當事人肯在虛假中自殺死去，那他就會從中甦醒過來。可不是嗎？當我給虛假的意念或假象欺 哄了（其實也可以是自我欺哄，self-deception），如果有人向我戳破這假象，猶如向我屁股上重重的踢一腳，把我踢醒；或是不知何故，我竟肯向 這虛假死去，離開它的欺騙，我就重新活過來。只是，無論是前者或後者，這都是恩典。世上沒有人有必然的責任，把我從我信以為真的假象中解救出來。
說 了一通「潛行凶間」的「戲橋」，這些與本文標題「前行空間」有什麼關聯呢？且聽我慢慢道來。我們若受隱藏於自己內裡的假象或虛假意念（可以是自己本人和外 在的人與處境）欺哄，以假作真的來生活做人，我們就會接觸不到真相（out of touch with reality），活在虛假中（live in falsehood），我們很難有改變，很難成長。因為上帝是真理，所以祂可以在任何地方；但祂一定不會在虛假中（God is Truth and He stays nowhere in falsehood）。所以，我們很難在仍執持自己的假象或虛假意念的境況中經歷上帝。假如我們自知地或不自知地堅持要活在假象中，就會將賜人新生命的上 帝拒諸門外，生命就沒有「前行空間」了。
可幸的是，上帝有恩典，在我們的生命看似沒有「前行空間」時，祂或許會差派使者，或藉祂的聖言給我 們狠狠地來一腳，希望能踢醒我們。又或許會賜下恩典，讓我們在不知怎樣的艱難處境際遇底下，終於肯放下自己對假象的堅持，肯「死去」而非死手不放，我們就 走出假象，與上帝相遇在真相中（in touch with reality）；人就能在「真」中經歷叫人成長的上帝，生命因而有所改變，人生就有「前行空間」。不過，既是出於上帝的恩典，我們就無法預知和支配這出 路會否出現和怎樣出現。因此，謙卑在上帝、聖言、別人和處境面前，就顯得無比重要。
最後，我用男主角一句對白來結束：「如果一個人在夢中〔假象、虛假意念〕中不醒過來，他會在夢中一直老去〔但不會死〕，他會充滿悔恨」。
所以，弟兄姊妹，渴慕真理，切望真相
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